Feeling Blue!!??

Found my reason after so long. The reason stayed but not for long.
Am i among those unfortunate ones who turn to their blogs only when the blues overpower. Wow! i started writing this and i m blank now. Cannot recall the words which forced me to sign in. Phew!!
Ok then let me try to pour something in. Ya probably i was to talk about some temporary phases which keep on knocking back again.. and yet again.. The one thing belonging to this category is coming back to the same old state of mind, just when you thought you were able to get over all that.
Well i thought this would be the last time. But God..... Things are not as simple as they do look..!! it had to come back. Come back being more strong this time.
You enjoy this.. dont you.. Oh God.. How could you.......
I cant even request you to stop doing this. Not for this that you wont grant me wat i want, I know, u know all that i wish for..
The secret is I enjoy fighting these temporary phases.. and then if everything in life had to be so straight and simple then what fun could have been left in life...

If you want to test, then lets play.. I'm into this game to welcome your bouncers.. :)
Thanks for making my life so happening.. ;)
And yeah you don't have to worry.. I'm enjoying down here with my people..

aal izz well here
:)

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Being, Belonging and Becoming.

There is this feeling called ego, which resides in the minutest parts of brain. Results: I could see it going away from me long back.. But I never attempted to change the wind.
There is another emotion referred as affection. Results: I don’t feel strong enough to see or accept the things as they are. Actually never expected it could get this worse. Woossshhhh… late lamenting…
Being what I have been till now wasn’t easy. Running away from what belonged to me was an error in judgment. And now I don’t want to become what it might take me to.
To stop thinking would not be the solution as I can’t stop seeing.
If… if only I could own time... if only anybody could own time… I would not shy away from begging some for me... just a few months or a little more undeniably.. Want to erase some parts so as to make the air comfortable.
Well I know it has to stay as such. Science still has many bars. The good old saying is the only truth. You have control only in your present. Being honest to all the belongings, material or immaterial, will help become well again.

Being the Mediator

How is it like when u r told that u r somebody's last hope. And still u r unable to solve the puzzle.
One asking to talk about the solution. I suppose this makes a level assured to reach the other end.
Other says dont hint to that, the apparent stable equation might get lopsided.
I feel weak. There seems to be no easy fix for this separation. Constantly being asked what could be the way to cross this hurdle. Tried.. to help them pass through.. but a step from other side showing willingness is all i need.

Though the attempt was delayed, the extent of efforts required has already surpassed.
Sometimes it goes in mind to go on with the flow and leave back all who dont want to continue. Alas! the harder part is that the thoughts keep developing ever growing cobwebs entrapping good old times forcing to reconsider.

Its as if the hope is itself hopeless.. helpless..

BATTLING CONFUSIONS

This grief is for the feeling of not being sufficient to achieve. The purpose might not be to actually achieve. This time it is to know if at all my capabilities are able enough to reach the desired end. The driver is the intention to overcome the guilt of incompetence. I know testifying would need investing lot of time.

Truth remains in my conscience. What that would be at the end is not what I want from my life. This is the rush of wants which others want. Impact of surroundings is the reason of wants. Still I want it. Be it for the impact or be it for the need to overcome the culpability.
And then I say how much fun it will be to achieve and then moving over without accepting? Need a word more precise than ‘funny’ to beat the situation? HaHa!! It is easy to talk big and to try to prove you don’t care but what if you are actually mad over certain issues.

Oh dear.. Why can’t you make a final decision before moving ahead?? Why are you always so confused…??
Wish i could battle my confusions......