Still i am in love..

I never heard anyone playing violin in the background,
Still i am in love..
I never enjoyed winds blowing my hairs off when he is around,
Still i am in love..
I never felt butterflies in my stomach in his presence,
Still i am in love..
I never became an insomniac,
Still i am in love..
I never went out of words while talking to him,
Still i am in love..
I never missed out on my meals,
Still i am in love..
I never understood love,
Still i am in love :)

The Seven Love Lessons....

6^th standard, Bhavan's Public School, Amritsar. We were asked to join either of sports or NCC. I chose to try my hand at Badminton.

It was for the first time that I started saying this word, “Love”, so openly.

Love All, the start. The start of what?

A war starting with “Love All”! Really.. how is this possible.. What was in that person's mind who devised this term..!!

I obviously don't have answers to this question.

But I have something about which I was longing to write from quite some time.

I have learnt many love lessons during different phases of my life. Here I wish to share the Seven Love Lessons.

Lesson 1: Love is a feeling which has no definition, its extent cannot be bound in any length of words.

Ever since I started realizing feelings, I have known Love as a feeling. A feeling, which makes my parents concerned about my every wish, small or big, possible or impossible. A feeling, which makes my sisters worry every time I try to prove I am a grown up girl and I can handle things on my own. A feeling, which makes my friends care about the silliest of my issues. A feeling, which is pious of all the immaterial and material things. A feeling which cannot be described and can only be felt only somewhere deep inside.

Love neither has any reasons. Its just so unconditional in its existence.

Lesson 2: Love all!

My first worldly experience with this word told me to love all. When I look deep into it, I see, I was told to love not only my friends but also my opponents. Even if anyone is against me, only thing I am supposed to do is to love that person, pray for the well being of that person. If I am questioned for my deeds or if I am challenged for my righteousness, I only have to prove by playing my part honestly as I used to do by playing against my opponents with an earnest conviction of winning.

Lesson 3: Loving more than the love you receive will only increase love in your life.

Love, in my life, could not end just with this “Love All” game.

It had to go further.. much further..

As a child, I used to wonder, what forces my parents to care about me so much. What are they getting in return. Now I know, its love.. “an investment which doesn't seek any returns”.

I am fortunate to cherish all the love bestowed upon me by many good God's souls, but fairly not fortunate enough to be able to revert all the love I am blessed with.

The number of ways in which I have received love, the number of sources of love I have cherished, I wish someday I be able to outnumber that.

More u love, more you receive love, happier and happier becomes your life.

It then becomes an infinitely increasing love loop... :)

Lesson 4: Love - Handle with care.

Its only a mother's love that knows to give and keeps giving forever, without asking for anything back. My mother will do anything for me, she is not concerned about how tired she is or how busy she is. Yes I do share a lovely father-daughter relationship also. But papa would not always be polite to all my actions. He would demand justifications for the things he thinks are not good for me.

After all somebody in the family has to take responsibility of me not turning to a spoilt kid.

All other relationships that share a love bond need careful handling.

Don't ever take your love for granted. There are expectations involved in most of the relations. And its only up-to you to improve or spoil any relation.

Lesson 5: Love is not a measurable quantity.

Never compare anyone's love towards you, as there are no means to measure love. “I love you more than anyone else” stands no meaning. Love either exists or it doesn't. Its simple.

Love is a state which takes you to purity. Do not demean it.

Try finding out reasons for loving someone, if its a measurable check list, this definitely isn't Love. Stop be-fooling yourself.

Lesson 6: Love is about being Selfish.

Selfish! Did I just mention a word called “Selfish”!! when everyone says love is about sacrifices, its about forgetting your pains and making the other person happy, how can I even think love is Selfish....

Well relax.. I can explain this one...

Sacrifices come naturally. Sacrifices in love are not the ones which u might do downheartedly, but these are of a higher division. You don't even realize you just sacrificed something, you feel happy because you gave a smile to the person you love. And this becomes the reason for your happiness.

If you are really selfish in love, you would want to see yourself more happy. And for that you will do whatever it takes to make your loved one happy.

So what I mean to say is, more selfish you become in your relationship, more happy and strong becomes your love bond.

Stupid logic I know, but there has to be some fun in love. Every rule should not be so serious :)

Lesson 7: There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved.

When two people are in Love, their happiness gets connected. Love is a state of being in haven.

You pray for your Love's happiness before praying for yours.

You see your own joy in loving, you find yourself special when you are loved.

Love is indeed simplest of all definitions & still is more complicated than any complex scientific theory..

Respect this feeling. Don't waste time digging reasons for the acts that don't please you at times. Using spade for going deep in mud will only spoil the crop that might turn to a good fruit plant very soon. Ignore a few thorns that might hurt you rarely, for once the plant is nurtured with love and care, your life will be a happy life forever... :)

I will wait till i die...

U said u are by my side
And so I got the reason of my life

U said u will never ignore
Thts when My faith got lifted a lil more

U promised many things
I had confidence within

U confirmed it again
And My belief sustained

Then U found ur life's prorities
I accepted my fate's atrocities

U kept on extending ur pauses
While I could hardly present my clauses

So U said u will try
But Do U kno.. that for u,
I will wait till i die...

When you find it don't let it go

“Taking things for granted” on one side of a balance and “Expectations” on the other, which way would the needle bend?

Both are justified. Both weigh equally good... till the opinions don't conflict.

For once, it feels good to receive (and give) 'Support' and 'Love'. And then it starts with taking it all for granted following the surging expectations.

Meeting up to the expectations of somebody momentarily gives pleasure but when it becomes the habit of the seeker, it feels like an obligation.

And then comes the Guilt or anger. The feelings of unmet anticipations can become suffocating.

Discomfort takes the control. The good times are forgotten. And everything gets messed up.

What could have been a better escape to this?

Not expecting anything from anyone, avoiding relations, not getting attached to mankind, not loving or by just doing everything superficially and heartlessly?

There has to be a better answer. A simple one. We need to find it, for a happier life.

Differences in thoughts is what becomes the reason for instability. Assumptions create confusions. And so do taking things for granted.

Expectations, that don't interfere with one's happiness and space, strengthen the relationship. Understanding of the balancing forces is needed. Respecting the differences is important.

Its hard to find a reason that satisfies the purpose of life. It may be your love, your job, your family or your friends or anything (or anyone) that gives you happiness.

When you find it don't let it go.

Hold it, Respect it, show Care towards it, not only for a moment but Forever..

How can I explain what I feel..

Why should I tell you my weakness,
You might exploit it someday.
How can I say to you what hurts me the most,
You might overlook sooner or later.
Questions keep flowing in this depthless ocean of thoughts
Contradictions, interpretations, arguments all dwell here...
Quite some notions bind my dilemma…
If not to you, with whom can I share my heart!?
I am afraid,
Letting you know everything might make things difficult
For me and for you too,
Or it might make everything just as wonderful as in my fantasies!!
Why am I saying all this when we share a pure knot,
For, this time, I hope, will hold no misunderstandings…
Weakness if I have any, it is you…
Hurt whenever I feel, is when you are hurt…
It’s true…

You are my True Love...